Chemo 6 ( LAST ONE!!) Hurray!

10/12/12-- Celebration for the above milestone started on the eve, with my old neighbour ( from Hoy Fatt Road)- They bought me lunch at Genesis( I really have been going there 2x a week) and they invited my family to Amara Sancturay this coming Sunday-- God is Good. The others have begun to fill my dates after chemo 6. All 4 sisters are going out on 13/12 and 14/12 ( LB's bday). It will be so good to be distracted from bone aches if it comes.
11/12/12-- Lay Bin( very grateful for her support as well as everyone who has been forthcoming) accompanied me to the clinic AND I AM really ELATED that this is the last one! Nobody can really understand my relief .... in addition to bearing up with the treatment , I am frequently haunted by LG's experience. I regretted that I did not prepare as much for him as I am doing for myself. Also I felt that he did not have as many caring friends as I have! Blood test scores were PERFECT-PRAISE THE LORD ( triglycerides 300+++-- must be either the  KL and Ipoh food or the 2 capsules of shark oil I take every morning--- intend to reduce it to one, Vit D was low-- Dr Wong said that 90% of the population is low-- becos all want to look good-- so gave me 2 month supply of it as it is essential for the bones).Dr Wong prayed with us and asked God to see me through the 27  radiotherapy sessions with NO side effects and the nurses assued me that radiotherapy is much easier than Chemotherapy. Dr Wong also asked God to replace all that I have lost DOUBLY-- I guess she's referring to my health becos I am not sure God can replace LG......
After the initial grogginess and nausea I slept till 3 pm throughout the intravenous chemo and ate the lunch that was delivered by Valerie. Felt very very tired upon returning home but the immense relief , gratefulness and confidence I feel is beyond words.
12/12/12-- Auspicious Day for wedding! Just as auspicious for me too! Decide to have a jucie diet for lucnh since there will be a lot of feasting soon to come....LY arriving in the afternoon for the next 2 days of frenzied shopping and eating..... Flushed face again in the late afternoon and evening
13/12/12- The sisters wanted to go to Bukit Timah hill to hike , bone ache has started to kick in... They visited Uncle Leong at Alexandra Hospital and prayed for doctor's wisdom. Simple lunch at Sunny choice then to MBS, buying undergarment at La Senza, tea at TWG and then some serious bday shopping at International Plaza for LB. Bone ache was worse at night- did not sleep much.

14/12/12-- LB's 50th bday!-- had my morning walk with Soon Mee whose second-hand car was mysteriously  flooded in the back seat( must have gotten an accident car)! Tried to delay the medication till lunch so that I can last the whole afternoon.Collected cake and kueh , dropped Wilson for work and picked Valerie up at NUS from her dance camp( she has sprained her ankle-- she looked stress-up).

By the time I reached the lunch venue, I was hungry with no urge for food( contradicting), crippled and stiff! After lunch Valerie and Wilson Lee joined us and so I got separated from the main group, tried to keep up as the bone medication bought relief. Quite happy We are able to buy some Bermudas for Lee! There is much joy in simply JUST GIVING-- no need to sell everything at home to be compassionate  as advised in the bible .The whole group went for massage at 313 and having collected the car from ION and parking it at comcentre, I sent Valerie back to NUS to hand over keys as she was in no condition to rejoin the dance camp. Of course the bday surprise in the evening was a glorious success
15/12/12-- Though I wasn't exactly in top form. I still go for Zumba as it is more preferable than to laze around at home in pain and misery. I must have looked rather unwell( nausea) as Soon Mee insisted on accompanying me to NTUC and then to the car-- I will never forget such kindness!
Recently I spent more than $2k buying a lot of bedsheets for all my friends as Xmas gift--- not that I can leave behind any inheritance to all of them, just a memento to register my appreciation because some of them have really been great, always putting my interest above theirs when we are together( like not allowing me to lift a finger to do anything and always giving me the choicest food)-- I know to care and love someone requires sacrifice of time , effort, money and inconvenience to their personal schedules! But to do it consistently is surely beyond human endeavour! Thank God for blessing for  surrounding me with such unconditional love!!!! 

Attended the TCC Xmas party in the late afternoon despite the bone aches. Got to dance all my favourites like Sway Me Noe. Amane, Doors of Life, West Texas Watz and tou tou mo mo, though the timing leaves much to be desired and the attitude and stamina pales in comparison , it was still good to be surrounded by caring people whose heart is in sync with ME!!!

Chemo 5 --- One MOre to go!

15/11/2012-- Thursday -- Blood test was PERFECT again that even Dr Lee ( radiotherapy) asked if I had any booster jabs to achieve such scores. Of course it was only by God's grace and all the prayers that everyone of you has sent up!

LS took time off the whole day and even prayed as the needle is going into my wrist. Tears flowed and the nurse was apologetic. Somehow I was quite overwhelmed by the flashbacks of LG and the numerous jabs he had to undergo kept on replaying in my mind like a film projector that had gone cranky. ( Peter delivered lunch for us and the salad was good) Phuay Hua also sent the aloe vera for me in the evening

Later there was a group of 3 evangelists who came over to pray for me but I was getting drowsy from the medication. More tears flowed freely when the elderly gentleman asked me why I became a Christian. I replied that I believed and I have faith! ( my unflinching reliance on HIM)

When God took LG home, I felt that He loved me less than others, perhaps I have not been a good christian and being human I surely will have many many imperfections and weaknesses. I also felt that I was being punished for loving LG more than God.

16/11/2012-- Flushed Face but  I still went to JB for lunch with Danzbuddies and had lobster lunch and organic durian. They gave me the choicest part of the fish and everyone has been simply wonderful since my affliction. God has indeed shown his love for me by putting so many people to care for me but he must also surely know that LG is irreplaceable!

17/12/2012--Day 3 -- Zumba session was simply wonderful , the stretches were just what my body needed. Sent Caroline's iPhone to MBS and bone pain starts to set in . Tried to take a walk at Kent Ridge with Lay Bin despite the heavy downpour , managed only half the route as my joints were not very comfortable. After 8 pm  Gina delivered gluten-free bread made by Ai Tin-- just nice for tea break before tomorrow's ACM. Prayed that tomorrow will be a better day!

18/11/2012-- Day 4--Did not make it to church as the bone ache has not EASED! When you are in pain and your taste buds are going havoc, its a bad feeling, prayed and rested. Lunch at Genesis with LB , LS and Peter. Felt a bit better after the meal. Somehow if the food you eat is nice, t makes you a bit better even though the taste buds are not functioning properly.Felt even better after he facial and massage at Dawson Place. Phuay Hua sent some more Aloe Vera and advised me to take some calcium pills. Had dinner with the whole family and 4th uncle at Canton Paradise in StarVista-- it was unanimously concluded that we will never eat there again although I must say that eating in a big group does distract me from my stiff joints! The bone aches persist and I prayed for relief and asked God to allay my anxiety throughout the night, couldnt really sleep till past mid night.

19/11/2012-- Day 5 -- After the walk at Kent Ridge, I am beginning to feel like my old self again. Praise the Lord for all the mercies big and small. Visited QSS and delivered my mc coverage till 28/02/2013. However, the medication wore off in the afternoon and so the bone pain is still just as tormenting. Called on God to hear my prayers for relief  and healing!

After Chemo 4

23/10/12- When I arrived  for the blood test, SANDRA was NOT there, it was the painful blood drawer(  from 2nd cycle)! I told her I need to go toilet first and in the toilet I prayed that it will be a pleasant experience! I was rewarded for my faith and my prayers! It was the best experience, when Sandra drew blood it was a scratch on the skin, this time I could not feel anything!

24/10/12-- Supposed to see Dr Wong at 1030 am but she was so busy going in and out of ICU and so I did not get to see her till past 12 noon. Fortunately Shandy was there to make the waiting less dreary.
Dr Wong said my blood test results were PERFECT! Previously it was EXCELLENT! Maggie came with Kobie ( BLess him God , he's really a joy to have around) and porridge for me. I was getting drowsy from all the medication they were pumping into me. There were really many chemo patients as the doctor was going off for the long weekend to Jakarta and the nurses were really busy. BUT MY PERSONAL NURSE SHANDY was the best, she helped me to the toilet a few times and made sure that I am comfortable and warm even though she was having a slight cough and would really like to have a nap herself! We only left the clinic after 5 pm.

25/10/12 - Flushed Face in the afternoon-- use my Lancome Genifique mask!

26/10/12- went for walk with Phuay Hua at Botanical Garden at 6 am, lunch at Ritz Carlton with the whole family. The bone pain seems imminent and so took the medication before it gets bad.
3rd uncle visited with Radiana, Ogata, Aunty and Uncle Teo close to 5pm, went for walk with Lay Bin at Kent Ridge Park and cousin David came with fruits and left them at my doorstep! I love all the fruits he bought! Surprise visit from Jenny ( came with soursop and jackfruit) and Caroline( 2 bags of clothes for Valerie ) and of course my BFF Maggie. Water tasted like metal and bearable bone pain has started but with so many visitors today , I am encouraged!

27/10/12- Bone and joint pain persists but I still attend the Zumba class as it is better than being in the house and feeling miserable. Had lunch with Maggie, Ivy, Jane, Helen and Shirley at Lee Tong Kee Hor fun, we had a delightful afternoon at Maggie's house just chatting away and poking fun at  everything said, Somehow in the fellowship of caring friends and the hospitality of my BFF Maggie, all the discomfort of bone pain seems more bearable. Hopefuly the bone pain will go away tomorrow!

Getting ready for chemo 4 and why my skin looks younger and better?

19/10/2012-- Took a good look at myself and realized that the skin looks awesome. I realize all the anti-oxidant consumed is working wonders. This is a list of things taken daily
1) Dr Hagiwara Barley green powder --rich in antioxidants, help delay the effects of aging, better skin, hair and nails( nails does look very pink and healthy)
2) Squalene-- shark oil --immunity booster- riches in alkglycerols, reduce side effects of chemotherapy, anti tumor effect, improves skin and oxygen rich
3) CoQ10 -- supports heart and cardiovascular function , ALSO very good for skin
4) Glucosamine chrondrotin-- this is for the cartilage and bone
5) Vitamin E -- ALSO very good for skin
6) Hypocol -- to lower cholesterol
7) Freshly squeezed ABC -Apple, Beetroot or Carrot( sometimes Celery or Zujini)- also another source for antioxidants
8) My favorite yellow kiwi, plums , blueberry or strawberry or cherries for breakfast with oats or pancake ( no gluten)
9) Been sleeping 6 hours a day  instead of the usual 4 to 5 hours!
Also corneline jelly from Phuay Hua every 10 days

Going for CHEMO 4 on Wednesday 24/10/2012 at 10 30 am ( to see doctor first- my sister Shandy from HK will accompany me there-- isn't it great!), Please pray for
(1) FAVORABLE blood test results
(2) No needle rejection and Sandra to be on duty to draw blood painlessly-- its only a scratch!
(3) Dont let the water I drink the few days after chemo to taste like metal and to be able to enjoy food!
(4) NO SIDE EFFECTS, NO BONE PAIN
(5) peace of mind when it comes to food ---Been secretly eating a half-roll of kueh dada, a bite of sugar free chocolate and a slice of bread once a week--- so that makes 3
(6) Continue to ask God to HEAL me, speak to me daily and motivate me as it gets dreary and wearisome at times when I yearn for normalcy and eat like everyone of you--- I would gaze longingly at some food and realize people at the mall looking at me with a weird look. I guess its more normal to gaze longingly at the  Abercrombie  model!!!!!

Updates after chemo 3

5/10/2012(Friday)-- Lay Bin accompanied me to my 3rd cycle of chemo. I was nauseous in the first 2 hours and drowsy most of the time. Must have been very boring for her but I am still grateful to see a familiar and caring face whenever  I opened my eyes or go to the toilet! Doctor said the potassium is a little high but it's not alarming.
6/10/2012( Saturday)-- Went for Zumba class but I could sense the slight dip in energy level , nevertheless I still enjoy the workout. In the evening LB and I took a walk at Labrador Park and the Keppel Bay Promenade. As cafe 308 was closed we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza and ate at Thai express. Before I slept , I felt my stomach churning, I think there must be a lot of wind.

7/10/2012( Sunday)-- After my oats breakfast I had a tummy ache and so decided not to go to church. Drank some ginger tea to get rid of the wind and we did go to Genesis for our usual lunch though everything from water to food tasted either bland or funny. The bone pain or muscle ache is more pronounced this time and so after the "mee-sua" dinner ( cooked by Wilson), I took the medication and retire for the night. Didnt really sleep till after 11 pm and woke up intermittently. Linda and Phuay Hua texted to enquire and I thanked all for your prayers and I will never forget your unflinching support.
8/10/2012( Monday)-- bone pain still persists and I didn't feel good the whole day so I spent my time watching DVD - The Practice... Experiencing Cold feet--read up and thot its some kind of nerve damage!!!-Danzbuddies are in Korea and Siok Im sent photos of their trip-- wish I can be there with them ......

9/10/2012( Tuesday)-- Bone pain seems to have eased ! Thank God for his mercy . I will praise his goodness and continue to ask God to hear my prayers for healing and Wilson( career) and Valerie( studies), give us double portion of your love I asked in Jesus' name! Cold feet seems to come back only in the afternoon.
10/10/2012 ( Wednesday)-- Bone pain is waning but the cold feet that comes on in the afternoon is still hovering...... Went back to QSS for the Zumba class, it was a good workout and seeing all the familiar faces does bring joy and all were very encouraging--P and VP (s). Mr Lui says to take live each day at a time....I probably need leaps of imagination to unlock the excitement that I used to feel for LIfe prior to my affiction...Slept early and well...

11/10/12 ( Thursday)-- Woke up at 4 30 am--- I think I slept too early last night! Today is going to be a good day for the bone pain seems non-existent! I have been reading this book == The unfailing love of Jesus === By RT Kendall.  It says that when God heals a loved one from dying, it is probably for ONE of the 3 reasons:
(1) because those who would be left behind simply could not cope alone----I feel very bad for being so competent--- LG please forgive me..........

(2) those who are healed have further work to do for God Here below----The job of parenting will never end and a single parent's burden is definitely HEAVY! and unsaved family members abound!

(3) God heals and postpones one's death so that his glory may be displayed-- to put skeptics to silence--Dear God though I can feel you  holding my hands tightly, I also worry that I may become a skeptic myself whenever I feel unwell for too long!

My conclusion -- it is a truth universally acknowledged that everybody wants to go to Heaven but no one wants to die......

I accept the fact that the rationale of suffering, death and eternity are beyond my( human)  grasp. I shall choose to pursue joy  and look for the good in everything that comes my way!
This morning QT -- Isaiah 38-- Hezekiah was stricken with a terminal illness and he pleaded with the Lord as he had served him whole heartedly and carried out the Lord's will ( I dont think LG and I did as much as Hezekiah). The Lord heard his prayer and added 15 years to his life!

So Hezekiah got a reprieve from immediate death but it is unlikely that 15 years later his loved ones will be "more willing" to say goodbye. Saying good bye to LG was definitely the most devastating blow to me even though I have NOT been nominated for any award for being an exemplary caregiver--- my regret in not being able to do more and be more self-sacrificing!

After chemo 2

Dear all
(1) Thank you  for all the smses, emails, visitations, food, encouragement, get-well card from US and MOST IMPORTANT your prayers! HE HEARS. I will praise him FOR NO SIDE effects at all. Except for a the the hair fall which is of course regrettable BUT I am beginning to accept that freakish stranger that stares at me in the mirror actually looks good as a result of all the antioxidant that I take-- the skin looks firmer and lesser lines--- its the truth!
In fact immediately after the 2nd chemo I felt even fitter than after the first one-- really very grateful to God for being so merciful.
ONLY loss of appetite for the first 4 days and flushed face on day 2, a bit of ache on day 3 and 4.

(2) There isnt any loss in energy levels at all  i.e I am still able to do all the things I want to do without feeling tired-- perhaps the real test comes if I go back and work a full 10 to 12 hours--- but I have to learn rest  in order to travel a longer journey.
I will be attending zumba fitness class this saturday morning

(3) I have this all -consuming obsession to read on google the various diet and what I can take and what I cannot-- not as anxious as before but I still want to stick to the no sugar, processed food, animal protein, dairy products and gluten if possible.

(4) I read in this book by Melanie Bone-- A journey through caner-- that Cancer is the loneliest disease in the world--- I beg to differ becos I felt lonelier prior to the diagnosis !- simply becos I have been getting a lot of love, care, and attention from everyone-- I am beginning to be a little worried that I may suffer from withdrawal symptoms once I go into remission
And in this book it says that Remission is also the time where there will be greater anxiety and fear of recurrence SO DO NOT LET GO OF ME just because i look strong and beautiful again!! I am now reading "When your doctor has bad news" - by Al. B. Weir-- the first chapter seems promising but looks( first chapter) are deceiving.

I am quite certain that at the end of my sabbatical , I will be a walking encyclopedia about all things related to gynecological cancer-- perhaps I can be of use somewhere

(5) Finally I will be going for the 3rd chemo -half way milestone next Thursday on 4/10/2012 and I hope you will continue to uphold me in your prayers . Pls pray  for:
(a) good blood count-- doc says that my blood tests HAS BEEN EXCELLENT-- as a patient also want to EXCEL-- you are beginning to see a glimpse of the old me......
(b) the chemo drug will do God's customized work of killing any remaining cancerous cells BUT NOT HARMIng any tissues or organs in the BODY
(c) no SIDE EFFECTS AT ALL---- you really have to  read to know how much other cancer patients suffer to know how grateful I am for this
(d)GOOD health for all loved ones so that they can continue to support me in this arduous journey
(e) God's guidance for Wilson(career) and Valerie ( studies)

I thank God for putting all of you in my life and may HE keep you in good health always

Getting ready for chemo 2

Dear all
The dreaded hair fall has started for 3 days and I should be quite
bald in another 3 days.--- so I won't be making aNy public appearances
in case the paparazzi are still around!
The roots of my hair are a bit tender-- almost like pain but my sister
Lay Bin thinks it is my body's way of telling me -----the pain of
losing the hair.

Though my sister Shandy has chosen a very expensive  and gorgeous wig
for me -- there is this inertia to want to use it--- but I think the
new hair that grows ( from all the cancer survivor website) will be
baby soft and nicer than my current frizzy look! -- so perhaps it may
turn out to be a blessing after all

The last 2 days I was a bit depressed , probably because I read blogs
of cancer survivors who seem to have relapses even if they go 100%
vegetarian which I am not as I am told by all that I need some meat to
produce red blood cells. Also these survivors seem to suffer so much
side effects as they go through all the cycles of chemo.

Finally I think we should continue to pray for
-no adverse side effects
- no chemo pain, no needle rejection, no hormonal imbalance
- allay my anxiety regarding food consumption --- no processed food,
no gluten, no animal protein, no sugar, no dairy products, no eggs--
sometimes  I feel terrible if I eat a bit of meat
-strong will power to resist my craving for restricted food -- ESP
chocolate and durian?
-chemo drug will do God's work of killing any residual or new cancer cells
- chemo drug will not harm any tissue, organ Or bone in my body
-God's divine healing and mercy on me
- able to live as normal a life as possible during this challenging
period of treatment e.g to be able to go for walks and buy my own
grocery and to learn  not to be Restless!
- God to bless my 2 children and all loved ones who have come forward
to care and support me with healthy bodies so that they can continue
to do the good work!

Have a blessed week ahead

Day 6 after First Chemo

Dear All

Except for the flushed face on day 2 ( which I cleverly use a wet facial mask to alleviate it) and random funny sensations on day 3 and 4 all over the body( definitely not bone pain), I do not have any adverse side effects as I strongly believe  that mine as well as all your daily prayers help!

On the evening of day 5 -- I develop some hives on my thighs and upper limbs and so Dr Wong gave me some medication when I met her yesterday for the blood test which she said was vey good. PTL ( Praise the Lord)

This morning one of my line dance friend, Soon Mee,  took me for a delightful walk at Kent Ridge park and I am grateful to God for sending so many to people to care and support me since the news of my affliction broke on July 23rd

Pastor Kien Seng and Deacon Linda came weekly and the uncountable number of friends( ( even from Queens) including LG's colleagues are still coming and I have never felt more loved in my entire life than this period.

Compared to other cancer patients, I thank God for reponding to me in this manner for he has sent so many to comfort me and give me asurance that all will be well. I am learning to rest in HIm and SURRENder all to him. Its not easy to have 100% surrender but I am on a learning journey and he speaks to ME in the most timely manner.--- to allay my anxiety or motivate me when I needed it

Everyone has been telling me to focus only on God and recovery and I am humbled by the love shown by ALL. Though I do not know what tomorrow ( or 6months later= 18 weeks of chemo and 5 weeksof radiotherapy) may bring, I know HE holds my hands( through the people around me --- sorry I am a tangible person!) and after this I will walk in the destiny he has planned for me!

Continue to uphold me in my journey

God is Great- My first chemo cycle

DEAR ALL
Thank you very very very much for all your prayers, visits, gifts, food, soup and help

Doctor Wong told us ( LB and LY were there) the the pet scan result is clear and she would put it at stage 2- Hallejuah!
She also said my blood test shows that I am a very healthy person except for the cholesterol part== so advise to continue with my hypercol
The chemo went smoothly. Started after 2 20 pm and ended about 7 pm. Doctor Wong also prayed with me after 5 pm== It was a powerful prayer and the most impactful one was : I am to have no side effect( like bone pain) that is sometimes experienced by other patients
My next 3 days timetable== would be =RESP = REST< EAT< SLEEP< PRAY
I have to see her again on DAY 6 ( 28/08--- to check my blood )and the next cycle== Day 22( 13/09)

Continue to uphold me in prayer! Good night

The Second Opinion

I had a very pleasant experience at Gleneagles and Dr Karmen Wong told me that by and large most doctors are pessimistic and by and large the Dr Soh I am seeing next Thurs is a good doctor ( her room mate in medical school) albeit not very chatty --- Brenda;s brother who is an oncologist says she is very good but dont have fantastic bedside manners???

Dr Karmen Wong spent 15 mins reading the case sheets then called me in. She asked me to share with her how I felt about my affliction and if I was angry with God for taking away Lim Gee and what sins do you think I have??

I poured out everything - my sins--- too busy for QT and sometime forget to say grace?? She jokingly said: Is that all???I asked her if the occasional sarcastic comments I made to students or some wicked thoughts about people who are not so nice is inclusive???

Anyway She is a very perceptive doctor  --- she prayed and anointed me with oil for 10 -15 minutes and she was able to pray with such insight-- she prayed that Sister Lay Kuan has been a very busy person and so the next 6 months to rest in the Lord will be challenging. She mentioned that I am a positive and mentally strong person, and in my  own words, I will just "grit my teeh and moved on" She said as my family has no history of cancer and she thinkd my body is not as strong as my mind and I have undergone a very stressful time--- perhaps the last 4 years-- I find the last 2 years without LG the most stressful!

She also added that the ovary is stage 1, uterus -- 7mm out of 22 mm of invasion about 32% is also stage 1 but becos 2 out of 25 lymph nodes tested positive for cancer --it is stage 3 c and she wanted to introduce me to another patient called Nicole , with same case history but worst staging and whenever doctors meet her will ask her if she is still around.. Patient is well and has a whole head of black hair!

She walked me through the 6 cycles followed by 5 weeks of radiotherapy and really made me feel so blessed and she asked me to pray for specifics like tell God that I want to see my children get married and enjoy grand children.

Lay Suan and Lay Bin want to check with David my cousin on my medical insurance with Prudential and Lay Bin suggested using my father's money to go private

I told them Dr Karmen Wong herself felt that if I am covered by Ministry, I should continue to do my treatment at KK......

I WANT to commit everything onto HIM--- be it doctor, or drug used, timing and schedule OR even the food I am supposed to eat or abstain ----as I think I should not try to be the driver anymore and then fret when things do not go the way we think should....

Thank you very much to all who have shown their love for me!!

My journey with Cancer-- Have Mercy oh Lord

Must God love me and LG equally? I hope not...........

23/07/2012
Cancerous cells in the uterine! The final shock still stuns me, the doctor's room felt very gold and my teeth was chattering -- an effect of the shock,my heart palpitates and the blood seems to race faster than the F1 cars, I do not seem to be able to think clearly with flurry of information download but of course in the usual efficiency typical of me, I manage to do all the payment, financial counselling and getting the appointment for the aCT scan.
The brain immediately went into an overdrive mode to plan for the many weeks of MC ahead as well as to text all those who care for me! Pray for healing, for mercy, wisdom, courage. Got to talk to Brenda and Maggie.
24/07/2012
Woke up at 230 am-- read everything online  about hysterectomy , after care and CT scan and prayed that everything will work out fine. I hope it does not involve too much suffering, pain and discomfort. I am very grateful to have so many caring colleagues and friends in my life but I know it is still a battle I have to fight myself. Pray that the children will remain strong and faithful. Linda sent a long prayer to me and Pastor Kien Seng also gave me Deut 31:8 -and I felt a sense of calmness and the blood did not rush around like the F1 cars anymore. The nurse in the CT scan room was very pretty and also comforting. It really makes a difference.
I was quite certain that during the drinking of 4 cups of water, The Lord put this old lady beside me , she gave me a vivid description of the whole procedure and how controlling her urine was an issue. The nurse was kinder to me, she allowed me to use the toilet even after the 3rd cup and boy! The old lady was envious beos she was not allowed to go to the loo after the 2 nd cup. I prayed to The Lord to have mercy on her as she is old and lonely and lives alone in a 3 room flat in AMK.
Felicia from church texted me that she is praying for me for God's favour n mercy to be upon me n his peace that surpasses all understanding.
Jasmine from school shared a song with me -- I will run to you
Susan also texted me to let me know that both she and Kim are praying and I am to look to God!