Must God love me and LG equally? I hope not...........
Cancerous cells in the uterine! The final shock still stuns me, the doctor's room felt very gold and my teeth was chattering -- an effect of the shock,my heart palpitates and the blood seems to race faster than the F1 cars, I do not seem to be able to think clearly with flurry of information download but of course in the usual efficiency typical of me, I manage to do all the payment, financial counselling and getting the appointment for the aCT scan.
The brain immediately went into an overdrive mode to plan for the many weeks of MC ahead as well as to text all those who care for me! Pray for healing, for mercy, wisdom, courage. Got to talk to Brenda and Maggie.
24/07/2012
Woke up at 230 am-- read everything online about hysterectomy , after care and CT scan and prayed that everything will work out fine. I hope it does not involve too much suffering, pain and discomfort. I am very grateful to have so many caring colleagues and friends in my life but I know it is still a battle I have to fight myself. Pray that the children will remain strong and faithful. Linda sent a long prayer to me and Pastor Kien Seng also gave me Deut 31:8 -and I felt a sense of calmness and the blood did not rush around like the F1 cars anymore. The nurse in the CT scan room was very pretty and also comforting. It really makes a difference.
I was quite certain that during the drinking of 4 cups of water, The Lord put this old lady beside me , she gave me a vivid description of the whole procedure and how controlling her urine was an issue. The nurse was kinder to me, she allowed me to use the toilet even after the 3rd cup and boy! The old lady was envious beos she was not allowed to go to the loo after the 2 nd cup. I prayed to The Lord to have mercy on her as she is old and lonely and lives alone in a 3 room flat in AMK.
Felicia from church texted me that she is praying for me for God's favour n mercy to be upon me n his peace that surpasses all understanding.
Jasmine from school shared a song with me -- I will run to you
Susan also texted me to let me know that both she and Kim are praying and I am to look to God!
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