23/10/12- When I arrived for the blood test, SANDRA was NOT there, it was the painful blood drawer( from 2nd cycle)! I told her I need to go toilet first and in the toilet I prayed that it will be a pleasant experience! I was rewarded for my faith and my prayers! It was the best experience, when Sandra drew blood it was a scratch on the skin, this time I could not feel anything!
24/10/12-- Supposed to see Dr Wong at 1030 am but she was so busy going in and out of ICU and so I did not get to see her till past 12 noon. Fortunately Shandy was there to make the waiting less dreary.
Dr Wong said my blood test results were PERFECT! Previously it was EXCELLENT! Maggie came with Kobie ( BLess him God , he's really a joy to have around) and porridge for me. I was getting drowsy from all the medication they were pumping into me. There were really many chemo patients as the doctor was going off for the long weekend to Jakarta and the nurses were really busy. BUT MY PERSONAL NURSE SHANDY was the best, she helped me to the toilet a few times and made sure that I am comfortable and warm even though she was having a slight cough and would really like to have a nap herself! We only left the clinic after 5 pm.
25/10/12 - Flushed Face in the afternoon-- use my Lancome Genifique mask!
26/10/12- went for walk with Phuay Hua at Botanical Garden at 6 am, lunch at Ritz Carlton with the whole family. The bone pain seems imminent and so took the medication before it gets bad.
3rd uncle visited with Radiana, Ogata, Aunty and Uncle Teo close to 5pm, went for walk with Lay Bin at Kent Ridge Park and cousin David came with fruits and left them at my doorstep! I love all the fruits he bought! Surprise visit from Jenny ( came with soursop and jackfruit) and Caroline( 2 bags of clothes for Valerie ) and of course my BFF Maggie. Water tasted like metal and bearable bone pain has started but with so many visitors today , I am encouraged!
27/10/12- Bone and joint pain persists but I still attend the Zumba class as it is better than being in the house and feeling miserable. Had lunch with Maggie, Ivy, Jane, Helen and Shirley at Lee Tong Kee Hor fun, we had a delightful afternoon at Maggie's house just chatting away and poking fun at everything said, Somehow in the fellowship of caring friends and the hospitality of my BFF Maggie, all the discomfort of bone pain seems more bearable. Hopefuly the bone pain will go away tomorrow!
Friday, October 26, 2012
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Getting ready for chemo 4 and why my skin looks younger and better?
19/10/2012-- Took a good look at myself and realized that the skin looks awesome. I realize all the anti-oxidant consumed is working wonders. This is a list of things taken daily
1) Dr Hagiwara Barley green powder --rich in antioxidants, help delay the effects of aging, better skin, hair and nails( nails does look very pink and healthy)
2) Squalene-- shark oil --immunity booster- riches in alkglycerols, reduce side effects of chemotherapy, anti tumor effect, improves skin and oxygen rich
3) CoQ10 -- supports heart and cardiovascular function , ALSO very good for skin
4) Glucosamine chrondrotin-- this is for the cartilage and bone
5) Vitamin E -- ALSO very good for skin
6) Hypocol -- to lower cholesterol
7) Freshly squeezed ABC -Apple, Beetroot or Carrot( sometimes Celery or Zujini)- also another source for antioxidants
8) My favorite yellow kiwi, plums , blueberry or strawberry or cherries for breakfast with oats or pancake ( no gluten)
9) Been sleeping 6 hours a day instead of the usual 4 to 5 hours!
Also corneline jelly from Phuay Hua every 10 days
Going for CHEMO 4 on Wednesday 24/10/2012 at 10 30 am ( to see doctor first- my sister Shandy from HK will accompany me there-- isn't it great!), Please pray for
(1) FAVORABLE blood test results
(2) No needle rejection and Sandra to be on duty to draw blood painlessly-- its only a scratch!
(3) Dont let the water I drink the few days after chemo to taste like metal and to be able to enjoy food!
(4) NO SIDE EFFECTS, NO BONE PAIN
(5) peace of mind when it comes to food ---Been secretly eating a half-roll of kueh dada, a bite of sugar free chocolate and a slice of bread once a week--- so that makes 3
(6) Continue to ask God to HEAL me, speak to me daily and motivate me as it gets dreary and wearisome at times when I yearn for normalcy and eat like everyone of you--- I would gaze longingly at some food and realize people at the mall looking at me with a weird look. I guess its more normal to gaze longingly at the Abercrombie model!!!!!
1) Dr Hagiwara Barley green powder --rich in antioxidants, help delay the effects of aging, better skin, hair and nails( nails does look very pink and healthy)
2) Squalene-- shark oil --immunity booster- riches in alkglycerols, reduce side effects of chemotherapy, anti tumor effect, improves skin and oxygen rich
3) CoQ10 -- supports heart and cardiovascular function , ALSO very good for skin
4) Glucosamine chrondrotin-- this is for the cartilage and bone
5) Vitamin E -- ALSO very good for skin
6) Hypocol -- to lower cholesterol
7) Freshly squeezed ABC -Apple, Beetroot or Carrot( sometimes Celery or Zujini)- also another source for antioxidants
8) My favorite yellow kiwi, plums , blueberry or strawberry or cherries for breakfast with oats or pancake ( no gluten)
9) Been sleeping 6 hours a day instead of the usual 4 to 5 hours!
Also corneline jelly from Phuay Hua every 10 days
Going for CHEMO 4 on Wednesday 24/10/2012 at 10 30 am ( to see doctor first- my sister Shandy from HK will accompany me there-- isn't it great!), Please pray for
(1) FAVORABLE blood test results
(2) No needle rejection and Sandra to be on duty to draw blood painlessly-- its only a scratch!
(3) Dont let the water I drink the few days after chemo to taste like metal and to be able to enjoy food!
(4) NO SIDE EFFECTS, NO BONE PAIN
(5) peace of mind when it comes to food ---Been secretly eating a half-roll of kueh dada, a bite of sugar free chocolate and a slice of bread once a week--- so that makes 3
(6) Continue to ask God to HEAL me, speak to me daily and motivate me as it gets dreary and wearisome at times when I yearn for normalcy and eat like everyone of you--- I would gaze longingly at some food and realize people at the mall looking at me with a weird look. I guess its more normal to gaze longingly at the Abercrombie model!!!!!
Sunday, October 7, 2012
Updates after chemo 3
5/10/2012(Friday)-- Lay Bin accompanied me to my 3rd cycle of chemo. I was nauseous in the first 2 hours and drowsy most of the time. Must have been very boring for her but I am still grateful to see a familiar and caring face whenever I opened my eyes or go to the toilet! Doctor said the potassium is a little high but it's not alarming.
6/10/2012( Saturday)-- Went for Zumba class but I could sense the slight dip in energy level , nevertheless I still enjoy the workout. In the evening LB and I took a walk at Labrador Park and the Keppel Bay Promenade. As cafe 308 was closed we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza and ate at Thai express. Before I slept , I felt my stomach churning, I think there must be a lot of wind.
7/10/2012( Sunday)-- After my oats breakfast I had a tummy ache and so decided not to go to church. Drank some ginger tea to get rid of the wind and we did go to Genesis for our usual lunch though everything from water to food tasted either bland or funny. The bone pain or muscle ache is more pronounced this time and so after the "mee-sua" dinner ( cooked by Wilson), I took the medication and retire for the night. Didnt really sleep till after 11 pm and woke up intermittently. Linda and Phuay Hua texted to enquire and I thanked all for your prayers and I will never forget your unflinching support.
8/10/2012( Monday)-- bone pain still persists and I didn't feel good the whole day so I spent my time watching DVD - The Practice... Experiencing Cold feet--read up and thot its some kind of nerve damage!!!-Danzbuddies are in Korea and Siok Im sent photos of their trip-- wish I can be there with them ......
9/10/2012( Tuesday)-- Bone pain seems to have eased ! Thank God for his mercy . I will praise his goodness and continue to ask God to hear my prayers for healing and Wilson( career) and Valerie( studies), give us double portion of your love I asked in Jesus' name! Cold feet seems to come back only in the afternoon.
10/10/2012 ( Wednesday)-- Bone pain is waning but the cold feet that comes on in the afternoon is still hovering...... Went back to QSS for the Zumba class, it was a good workout and seeing all the familiar faces does bring joy and all were very encouraging--P and VP (s). Mr Lui says to take live each day at a time....I probably need leaps of imagination to unlock the excitement that I used to feel for LIfe prior to my affiction...Slept early and well...
11/10/12 ( Thursday)-- Woke up at 4 30 am--- I think I slept too early last night! Today is going to be a good day for the bone pain seems non-existent! I have been reading this book == The unfailing love of Jesus === By RT Kendall. It says that when God heals a loved one from dying, it is probably for ONE of the 3 reasons:
(1) because those who would be left behind simply could not cope alone----I feel very bad for being so competent--- LG please forgive me..........
(2) those who are healed have further work to do for God Here below----The job of parenting will never end and a single parent's burden is definitely HEAVY! and unsaved family members abound!
(3) God heals and postpones one's death so that his glory may be displayed-- to put skeptics to silence--Dear God though I can feel you holding my hands tightly, I also worry that I may become a skeptic myself whenever I feel unwell for too long!
My conclusion -- it is a truth universally acknowledged that everybody wants to go to Heaven but no one wants to die......
I accept the fact that the rationale of suffering, death and eternity are beyond my( human) grasp. I shall choose to pursue joy and look for the good in everything that comes my way!
This morning QT -- Isaiah 38-- Hezekiah was stricken with a terminal illness and he pleaded with the Lord as he had served him whole heartedly and carried out the Lord's will ( I dont think LG and I did as much as Hezekiah). The Lord heard his prayer and added 15 years to his life!
So Hezekiah got a reprieve from immediate death but it is unlikely that 15 years later his loved ones will be "more willing" to say goodbye. Saying good bye to LG was definitely the most devastating blow to me even though I have NOT been nominated for any award for being an exemplary caregiver--- my regret in not being able to do more and be more self-sacrificing!
6/10/2012( Saturday)-- Went for Zumba class but I could sense the slight dip in energy level , nevertheless I still enjoy the workout. In the evening LB and I took a walk at Labrador Park and the Keppel Bay Promenade. As cafe 308 was closed we went to Tiong Bahru Plaza and ate at Thai express. Before I slept , I felt my stomach churning, I think there must be a lot of wind.
7/10/2012( Sunday)-- After my oats breakfast I had a tummy ache and so decided not to go to church. Drank some ginger tea to get rid of the wind and we did go to Genesis for our usual lunch though everything from water to food tasted either bland or funny. The bone pain or muscle ache is more pronounced this time and so after the "mee-sua" dinner ( cooked by Wilson), I took the medication and retire for the night. Didnt really sleep till after 11 pm and woke up intermittently. Linda and Phuay Hua texted to enquire and I thanked all for your prayers and I will never forget your unflinching support.
8/10/2012( Monday)-- bone pain still persists and I didn't feel good the whole day so I spent my time watching DVD - The Practice... Experiencing Cold feet--read up and thot its some kind of nerve damage!!!-Danzbuddies are in Korea and Siok Im sent photos of their trip-- wish I can be there with them ......
10/10/2012 ( Wednesday)-- Bone pain is waning but the cold feet that comes on in the afternoon is still hovering...... Went back to QSS for the Zumba class, it was a good workout and seeing all the familiar faces does bring joy and all were very encouraging--P and VP (s). Mr Lui says to take live each day at a time....I probably need leaps of imagination to unlock the excitement that I used to feel for LIfe prior to my affiction...Slept early and well...
11/10/12 ( Thursday)-- Woke up at 4 30 am--- I think I slept too early last night! Today is going to be a good day for the bone pain seems non-existent! I have been reading this book == The unfailing love of Jesus === By RT Kendall. It says that when God heals a loved one from dying, it is probably for ONE of the 3 reasons:
(1) because those who would be left behind simply could not cope alone----I feel very bad for being so competent--- LG please forgive me..........
(2) those who are healed have further work to do for God Here below----The job of parenting will never end and a single parent's burden is definitely HEAVY! and unsaved family members abound!
(3) God heals and postpones one's death so that his glory may be displayed-- to put skeptics to silence--Dear God though I can feel you holding my hands tightly, I also worry that I may become a skeptic myself whenever I feel unwell for too long!
I accept the fact that the rationale of suffering, death and eternity are beyond my( human) grasp. I shall choose to pursue joy and look for the good in everything that comes my way!
This morning QT -- Isaiah 38-- Hezekiah was stricken with a terminal illness and he pleaded with the Lord as he had served him whole heartedly and carried out the Lord's will ( I dont think LG and I did as much as Hezekiah). The Lord heard his prayer and added 15 years to his life!
So Hezekiah got a reprieve from immediate death but it is unlikely that 15 years later his loved ones will be "more willing" to say goodbye. Saying good bye to LG was definitely the most devastating blow to me even though I have NOT been nominated for any award for being an exemplary caregiver--- my regret in not being able to do more and be more self-sacrificing!
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